THE FINAL ACT

And when it all goes up in that one 'puff', is when you realize that there is no hope left-the fire has been burnt. Since so has been the case of every other fire, this one too brings down everything else with it. In that one following moment of life, a moment where it is supposed that you see your entire life in front of you, one should realize that the truth is you can neither get yourself to scrutinize the past nor lament about the future. Both, for totally different reasons of course.

I am, sadly discussing the point of suicide dear readers. If you'd not already noticed the saying on the right hand side of this blog, please read it now-'from the very moment you lose the passion to live, life just happens to be an illusion...’
But this does in no way mean that suicide point has been reached. It just means that there appears, to you or rather to your present 'state of mind', that there is no alternative left. Splendidly put, there is no chance of 'hope'.

HOPE! Hope it is. Isn’t it with this sealant that we lead our lives and its meager goals? Or am I wrong in my judgment? Maybe, maybe not. Hope is what drives our very ambitions, or at least as far as what I can see. Anything said or done, anything aspired for, anything affected-it can all be associated with hope, majorly. Then when we reach a point where we claim to have lost hope, what is it that we've truly lost? Is it our aspirations or our actions or our ability to reason or bluntly put-our ability to fight it out? Isn’t it this juncture of the 'all-lost' that we can truly recognize as the suicide point? Yes, here is my take on it. The much unawaited, yet inevitable point (seemingly only to those who are done with it) is reached when coupled with the lack of hope, they stagger to a point where they are unable to get themselves to put up a fight. A fight here represents nothing other than the lack of will power that, as sad as I am to accept, are possessed by very few in this modern day society where suicide has become a fashionable trend (or so I fear).

If suicide is to be considered from their point of view (the suiciders), I'd say it is their final act of meek 'giving-in' to the oppressive forces that surround them overpoweringly. Careful as I should be, please note that I am not saying the suiciders do so without a valid reason, at least thinking from their own perspective. Siding by them (as I should do so to remain diplomatic), I should say most of the suiciders face a problem who's enormity we cannot even brave ourselves to think of. If such is the case, having understood that I, and the rest who condemn these acts are not able to relate or get ourselves to understand their problem, then who are we to comment on their act? When the law itself folds their hands at the back and stand-at-ease, we might as well be in attention and make sure we don’t reach such a despondent situation ourselves.

But, we turning our backs onto such a 'grave act of shame', and I chose my words carefully, would be inheriting a trend of acceptance that has seared itself through our social upbringing. Shouldn’t we, as creations of the same one Master, be united in opinion that none other than he, has the right to take back the gift he had awarded us with. I've always staunchly believed that we, our bodies, are just the keepers of the real gift (life/soul) presented to us. In that case, the meek act of suicide is dereliction of duty.

Having said all this I'm fully aware that in the course of a lifetime, of which I've seen so less (especially compared to the suiciders) and been in far less perilous situations, there shall certainly arise circumstances where one would be expected to make unreasonable decisions such as suicide. Cannot blame him/her totally for thinking in a very conservatively selfish manner and not thinking about the consequences their actions shall bear on their surroundings, man or matter. As I said earlier, in that wretched situation, where something else other than your own conscience controls the mind, you shall not be able to think of past or future, let alone debate your actions that are to follow.
But it is maybe my conservativeness or ever overboard optimism that pushes me into thinking out loud, that whatever may the situation be, say a no to suicide. Give up on your efforts of revival, give up your aspirations, give up even your hope but never give up your life-it’s not for the taking.

A sms received a long time ago seems to trickle through my mind now-'when God takes you to the edge of a cliff, its either coz your gonna learn how to fly or coz he's gonna catch u when u fall.' But God will never be there to catch you if you decide to run over the cliff yourself!